I am really good at running, and I don’t mean exercise running. I mean running away from feelings and emotions and problems and things and people I don’t want to face.
I don’t always like the truth, and sometimes I’d much rather deal with a lie and just live with it. If it’s going to break me, don’t tell me. You can lie to me, as long as I don’t find out.
If I have to tell someone how I feel, I don’t. I look at them and I refuse to stare them in the eye. And then I just run as far as I can and hope they don’t catch up. And when they try to speak to me, I will ignore them. I won’t answer. I won’t read their messages. I am too scared to face emotions.
So maybe I am too scared to face this question of us. And I’d rather just not deal with it. So I want to let you know that most certainly, I am going to run, but I don’t know if I want you to chase me or catch me. I just want to run and run, run as far away as possible as I can. Because I don’t know what to do or what to say and I am afraid of falling for you. I do not want to fall for you. And those are the two things I am really good at, falling and running.
I am really good at running,
yet I am never the first one to walk away.